I haven't updated for a while, not because I'm too busy but the opposite. I have been having too much fun.

This pretty much continues, now that the grad school stuff is done, I'm feeling a lot better and feeling more free.

School work is nothing compared to what I experienced the end of last year.

I go to eat now.

Margaret, one of the cognitive psychology grad students pulled me out of the slump by informing me that it take 10-15 days after you take the GRE for grad schools to recieve your scores. Not 6 weeks like I had origionally thought. So you know what that means! Decemeber 1st I be taking the GRE again! the earliest application (which happens to be the University of Utah) is December 15. So wow. I continue this process (even though a part of me wants to just hide away in a hole)

Just a quick little update. A better update. I have a test tomorrow and water polo tonight so I best be going.

all of this = relief + a renewed energy + the pressure is back / I can do this.

This week is fall break. It has been nice, however I am feeling a bit anxious about the looming tasks that are before me for the next month and a half. (namely grad school applicaitons)

My classes are incredibly easy which is nice. I am taking 15 credit hours but I am only in class for 6 1/2 hours a week. 

October is not my favorite month. In fact it is my least favorite month of the year. I tend to feel a little bit down in October(s) but actually since Wendy has come along. I'm not feeling near as down as I used to. I noticed this last year too. 

Wendy's and my bike have been in the living room since we have lived here. Yesterday I finally purchased bike locks so that we can lock them in the community laundry room.

We decided (98% sure) that we are going to get passes to Snowbird this year. This makes me very happy but at the same time I don't want to let go of the money. But I think it is important to do things like this together while we are young. We have to pay for all of egypt in January. So with the ski passes, applying to 15 grad schools, adding another band to Wendy's ring, Christmas, anniversary. In January are savings is going to = 0. But thats ok, it just makes me a little nervous.

I have discovered a new hobby.... swimming. Thanks to this water polo stuff I have found swimming to be a invigorating and satisfying exercise. I'm trying to incorporate active things into my weekly schedule to form some good healthy habits while I am young. Also it makes me feel so good mentally and physically that this has actually turned into a huge motivation. It makes stressful situations more tolerable.

The apartment needs cleaning but I don't feel like moving. Sometimes when I get a break such as fall break I think I have all of this extra time to get stuff done, but then I just end up doing nothing. Oh well, I guess I need a break from doing stuff.... but definiatly not from exercising!

I got my teeth cleaned last week, no cavities. Which always is a relief I hate having my teeth drilled into.

I suddenly feel like writing. Perhaps it's because of the break.

My mom decided to go to college. She is starting out by taking one class and she is really enjoying it, she has decided to get a degree in psychology which I think is awesome. Right now she is going to BYU Salt Lake center. But I am trying to convert her to the right side. Red is so much better. (even though my favorite color is blue) But it sounds like she is going to end up going to the bubble (provo) after she is done with the Salt Lake center. My mom is from England so she has been exposed to diversity. But I think she would like the diversity of the U of U. That's why I like it. I enjoy being around all kinds of people. I like, no, I love diversity. I strongly believe that this is what this state/culture needs. In order to form a more pure respect for others and others personal choices and beliefs. Maybe I am wrong but sometime I think people forget that others with different values feel just as strong about their personal beliefs as them. Not to throw any stones. But when others pass judgement on others because they don't follow what they strongly believe and openly state such things it sadens me deeply. For example, this week I overheard people talking about an alcoholic. Saying that this person found himself in situations because he lacked "intelligence" (along with a sarcastic laugh about how this person just needed to stop drinking. I was so infuriated by this statement. Because I know that "intelligence" has nothing to do with it. When it comes to alcoholics they, to a certain extent have lost the ability to choose. If it were as easy as "intelligence" well, wouldn't that be nice.

This is just one situation that makes me infurated then after very sad. I guess I stand for the alcoholics(or insert any "group" here). For their right NOT to be publicly humiliated and shunned. Because honestly, I think it is worse to tear people apart in such manner as if the ones doing the tearing apart are perfect. Yes in this situation, alcoholics hurt themselves and the people around them. But that isn't ground for trampling them under your feet as if you have no problems and as if they are objects. This is the last thing an alcoholic would need. They would need love and acceptance and an attempt at least to understand where they are coming from.

Wow that felt good, I guess I had a lot of pent up feelings about this. I just feel like as a Utah culture we have forgotten to respect and love others regardless of their personal choices and beliefs. I suppose I am casting a few stones by writing this and passing a few judgements about the people doing th judging. But..... enough is enough.

Yes I have my beliefs that are near and dear to me that come from my religion, and that is great! No where do my values state that I treat others different because of their PERSONAL beliefs and choices. I live the way I want to, others live the way they want to, and this is great also! I am fine with this and I welcome diversified friendships.

Mutual respect is what I wish for. Or maybe I am reading into things too deeply?

Choice is why we are here. Choice is what makes life worth living. CHOOOOOSE. :)



 

wow I just paid $130 for the psychology GRE I feel raped. I also found out that after August 31st I wont get paid money from my job with the psych dept because the grant ran out, I like the job, now I am going to continue to do it for free. The experience is worth more than money. I am going to try to get more grant money starting in January with the clinical lab that I do work for by applying for it myself through the advising center. 

But everything has worked out fine. Now we will only live off of Wendy's income which is enough, I mean really I wasn't earning any substantial amount and when we planned out our finances we didn't even include my income on it. So everything will continue as planned.

We are going to Egypt in May so we just aren't going to have as much extra money in savings, the trip will not be affected.

I am about to take both GRE's and I am feeling a little bit of pressure but it should work out fine!

.....and the begining of something new. This was the last semester that the grad schools are going to see so I felt a lot of pressure. But it all went well I got on the dean's list like I wanted. 

Now is the time to prepare for the GRE, when that is over I am going to be releaved! 

I'm nervous and excited to apply to all of the schools. I'm hoping to go to the U of U but I will go wherever I need to go. 

It is actually kind of nice to have nothing to do after working so hard for 12 weeks of the summer. 

Fall should be more enjoyable I am only taking three classes so I can focus on applying. 

That's pretty much all that is going on. In a few weeks Wendy and I are going to Jackson hole which I am really excited for, the hotels up there are so expensive, the motel 6 up there is 100 a night, that is the cheapest we could find.

I yam off.

Tomorrow Wendy and I fly out to San Diego. I seriously can't wait. A week of relaxing! Weekends are good relaxin times but a week...... oh man I can't remember what that feels like. 

2 more weeks left of school. 1 more left for me!

yo.